✨ an angry little poem ✨

you don't get
to steal
the stars
from my sky
anymore
get your own

🌬🌪 it's been sooo windy here lately! i saw a crazy video of a tornado the other day and even though tornadoes aren't common where i live i keep checking the sky for cloud formations and getting freaked out by how loud the wind is. we've actually been really lucky in general when it comes to natural disasters. we never seem to lose power.

🌱 i finally repotted my desert rose bonsai tree. i don't know if i did it correctly because i got lazy with the research after a while. to be honest, i'm not really into taking care of plants but it was a gift so i felt obligated to plant it. it's still small enough to keep on the window ledge. i don't know what i'll do with it once it gets too big to move around from inside to outside and back again. anyone want a desert rose bonsai tree some times in the future? :D if the flowers actually bloom it will be so pretty!

🥓 i had two pieces of pork bacon with breakfast today. it was so crispy and delicious. usually i have tukrey bacon because it's healthier but this bacon was organic and sugar free so that count for something, right?

🐛🦋 yesterday i learned that butterflies retain their memories from being caterpillars even though they completely dissolve into a caterpillar soup in the cocoon. i don't know how scientists figured that out but how cool is that?

i keep having dreams about an ex of mine who i never really think about anymore and don't miss at all. but in the dreams i keep falling in love with him and the feeling is so warm and intense, and then i wake up all confused. i don't know what my dreams are trying to tell me. either he still loves me and is trying to cast a spell on me to make me love him again (not that i ever truly loved him) or my brain just likes to mess with me. or it's something else?? i don't know, but these dreams always leave me feeling a little disoriented.

also, as i was falling asleep last night i randomly thought about how in the bible it talks about jesus' yoke being easy and his burden being light, and before i knew anything about the bible and had only heard of jesus and his yoke in passing, i always thought people were saying YOLK. like egg yolk. and i always thought "wow, jesus has an egg yolk? that's so weird. what does he even do with it? why does he have an egg yolk? is it inside of him? does he carry it in his pocket? is it just the yolk or does he carry the egg whites too?" and i just laughed about that for like 10 minutes and then fell asleep lol.

i always say
i want the moon
but to be honest
i don't even know
what i'd do with it
once i got it
besides kick it around a bit
like a soccer ball
or see how high
i can bounce it
maybe teach a seal
to balance it on its nose
but otherwise i think
the moon belongs
in the sky
and i belong down here
and the distance between us
is what makes it all
so wonderful

i hope whoever mistakenly received my amazon order and decided to not forward it to me is enjoying their vitamin d and calcium supplements and face sunscreen even though it's the middle of february.

i was on here about a year ago.
tried it out and it didn't really stick.
i'm going to give this another shot.

hello everyone! it's nice to be here again.
i even renamed my journal for this lol
i hope everyone's having a good day/evening
wherever in the world you are.

i think i'm mostly going to use this for:
poetry
and trying to focus on simple pleasures
the little things in life
and (maybe) some venting

we'll see how it goes!